Wish for a long term connection with a real taboo woman

I almost had everything I wanted and ran away from it. Would love a real woman that is direct, very very unable to control her desires. One that would push me to be what I am. One that would be encouraging and not just money money money. Someone genuine. I'm am attractive man that is kind, silly and playful. Very sensual and need a real women to have a meaningful connection on sig nal.